Reflections | Inktober with Charlie
It’s been just over two weeks since I attempted the annual inktober challenge. I am so thankful and impressed with myself for taking on such a large project. In each daily post on I did on patreon, I talk about a lot of things I learned and experienced, which kept me present and in a creative headspace. That was one of the most valuable takeaways from this challenge, that I can create every day, even if the “creative spark” isn’t there. It showed me the importance of daily practice, and more importantly, how this transcends more than the creative aspects of my life.
I’m not sure if this is just something I do, but when I challenge myself, and change my behavior purposefully, I really revel in the hindsight that you gain at the end of said challenge. I think this is one of the core reasons for taking on any sort of challenge, to learn and work on self growth. It can be difficult recognizing your own needs, or to draw boundaries, because of fear. If there is anything I’ve learned, though, is that if you maintain this path with a pure, genuine heart, people will see you, recognize you, and help you. One thing I have always kept in mind is that this is a never ending path of recognizing the missteps you may be taking, and owning up to them.
I have recently realized that the things I didn’t accomplish in October were interrupted by my own behavior. I have recently elected to make a tough life decision, and have received nothing but support from those close to me. Communicating these things are always scary, but no one can offer support if you don’t share with them. I am lucky enough to be surrounded by people who understand me and lift me up in so many profound ways.
So with this new change, I seem to have more free time, for creating and for myself. That has been my number one priority since November began. Taking the time to pause everything, put it all on hold, and really be there for myself. It feels foreign but welcomed, and so overdue.