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Looking into the mirror of myself

Once I realized my biggest road block within myself, I began the hardest part of the journey of self-discovery. I am often dropping out of things as soon as they become difficult. Hardly ever do I persist. So I’m trying to make it a habit of recognizing when I am giving up, and making a conscious decision to persevere, to persist.
 
I have been feeling an art block lately and have decided today, I want to bring you along this journey, of working through or past whatever block this is, and share with you the final product. 
One thing I’ve discovered in this new mindset is that in order for me to change that automatic thought, I have to make change happen in my immediate surroundings as well. so today I’m bringing you along, and I’m painting on my porch today.

Sometimes, it feels like finding a subject for a painting can be the hardest part. My creativity has been interrupted and it takes time for me to get back on track. I’m taking a look at my surroundings and nothing is really inspiring me. I try not to look online too much while I’m painting because it can be toxic. 

The weather is perfectly calm and the sun is keeping my toes warm. I’ve brought with me my box of ink supplies, (should I do a tour of my ink supplies??) some strathmore paper, and my travel watercolor pallet by winsor and newton. I think I’m gonna do today’s painting with a water brush. this thing is pretty cool, it’s basically a round to brush that has a water reservoir. I can paint very fine lines with it, or if I squeeze the handle, it adds more water and it becomes a transparent wash.   

 

I have this plant I got from my mother in law, but I’m not sure what it’s called. I really love the shape of the leaves and the pink coloring. when I first started painting this, I didn’t think I would do a good job. it almost seemed impossible. but I kept putting pigment to paper and I’m really happy with how this turned out.   

When I talk about the thing that watercolor has taught me, it is always patience. I thought I couldn’t paint these leaves because of the time involved. But I paused, inhaled, and really became one with my plants and surroundings. Allowing myself to take this breath, giving myself permission to find joy, allowed me to create this painting. I hope this inspires you to persist, persevere and believe in yourself. if I can do it, you can do it. 

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until next time, 
charlie

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